I raced against time... but I lost.

weee...2 papers dwn. 1 more to go. today's paper was a disaster. gonna shut my eyez n pretend tt it was just a nightmare again. went cheenatown wif my mom today. on the way back she asked how was my paper. n i gave that itz horrible shrug n sigh. which means, don ask further. n then she was like...what are u gonna do after that? n her tone was juz normal. n i was kinda surprised. coz i expected her to giv me that angry i'm so disappointed in u look. but she din. makes me totally guilty. hurmpzz! those evil thoughts n plans for my hols is somewhat dashed. feeling so guilty now. ask me to go out n enjoy...i don feel like it but on the other hand, i juz wanna let everything out. i need some therapy. haha` what's done is done.

going shopping tml. weee! cant wait though. :x

have u ever thought bout what you are gonna do when u grad from sch. there's so many paths to take. so many choices to make. everything lies in your hands. how you want your future to be, its up to u to decide. it all seems like a game. and in all game there's always this slightest possibility that things can go wrong. u take a wrong path, and u lose. u don see it in the beginning, but towards the end, u just sense that u are on the losing end. and wham! u lose.
i've alwayz been told that life is like a cycle too. if u have it all good and smooth sailing when u are young, chances is that when u are older, u'll face stormy seas. nothing ever last forever. but there's alwayz this possibility that u can turn it ard and pick yourself up. but then again, to tip the balance on the other side, what if u couldnt make it...
haha...