I raced against time... but I lost.

monday blues. so disappointed with myself. in studies n in wushu. got back pqm quiz paper today. i passed. but seeing so many pple getting 80+ and stuff juz makes u feel so....wadz that word to describe the feeling...hmmz...i donno. juz...tu lan maybe. cant say i don deserve that grade coz the fact is, i din study hard for tt paper. din even finish studying. oh sianz.

afternoon, had NDOC rehearsal. the band was dere playing. played the song tt we used to play in sec sch. cant rem tt piece. hmmz...now i kinda rem...is it concerto da'more? love it to bitz. den i thot kinda was dere...french horner. but she wasnt. lolz` saw jul's sis instead.

then...when it was our turn to rehearse, i stood at the wrong position...blah. arghz. sianerz. somehow, my heart wasnt dere to perform. donno y...juz felt darnz sian. screw it. i need more prac. grrrrrrrr.....

i'm starting to miss ycf trainingz. i miss the spirit of those pple. somehow, going for ycf trainings juz motivates u. to strive harder. to take up challengers. to b courageous. i miss the craziness in them. those trainingz were lyk dreamz. being back to reality is frigging sickening.

i'm complaining again...oh wellz.........srry pplez.

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